Monday, February 26, 2007

I'm lovin' it.

One week down. A whole lifetime to go.

If you are an avid follower of this blog then you know that I can not eat gluten anymore. I must say this: gluten sucks. After having been without it for 7 days now, I can say positively that I am definitely allergic to it. I feel so much better now and it's only been a week. The one time this week I had a migraine is because I ate a piece of chocolate with malt in it which has gluten. Did you know ketschup has gluten, too? Crazy. My favorite thing to eat now is applesause and those gummy fruit snacks. I feel like a kid again.

The Oscars were anti-climatic this year. I even watched "Babel" beforehand (because my boyfriend made me) and it was still disappointing. Although, I'm in love with Jack Black and Will Ferrell and to see the two of them dancing and singing together was all worth it for me.

This weeks goals: Find some gluten free pizza somewhere. I'm craving pizza so bad.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Doctor's visit

Well, I just went to a doctor's visit that will change my life...well, it will change my way of eating at least. I found out yesterday that I have Celiac's Disease which means I can no longer eat Gluten. What is gluten you ask? Well, gluten is found in wheat which means I can't eat anything that was made from wheat flour. No more breads, pastas, pizzas, cookies, cakes, crackers, pancakes, biscuits, cereals, bagels ... oh and the list goes on. But instead of concentrating on what I can't eat, let's look at what I still CAN eat. All meats, all veggies, all fruits, rice, potatoes, etc. etc. etc. Everyone I've talked to who has this disease says that I should start feeling well in no time, once I get all of the gluten out of my system. I also have to eliminate dairy from my diet as well, but let's be honest, who really needs biscuits and a tall glass of milk anyway. The great news about this is I will be eating less carbs so I will most likely lose a lot of weight. Sweet.

More news: I also found out I currently have 4 viruses in my body. One is the mono virus, one is walking pnemonia, the other two I really have never heard of CMV and the parvo-virus. So I'll be doing treatment for these viruses twice a week. I'll go get "anti-virus" IVs two times a week until I'm well...which could take up to three months. But I am willing to do whatever it takes until I'm better.

This was a lot of information to hear yesterday but I had my mom with me so that made things a lot better. She has been right beside through all of this. I could not have done this without her and my dad. They are incredible!

Well, I'll keep you posted as I enter my gluten-free life.

Friday, February 16, 2007

let it snow then.

Just when it was all going down...

He is amazing. I could stop at that, but I'll explain. Yesterday I was so sad, ready to cry by 5 oclock, mainly because I was in pain: headache/ back aches, the whole works. Buie came over and helped me move a few boxes and in the snow. When we got back over to my new place, I realized how happy I was. Right there in that moment, i was happy and standing in the snow looking at him and realizing just how lucky I am. I don't know what is was but it doesn't even matter. He makes me happy. So I say to that...let it snow.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

sad snowflakes

Is it allowed to post twice in one day? i guess it is since it's my blog. technically I can post whenever I want. It's funny how these blogs work to me. We are writing and for who? Who reads this or does anyone read this. Anyway, it's just funny to me. These are odd times we are living in.

I've been sad lately. Not sure why. Maybe it's the cold weather that's creeping in my veins. Maybe it's that time of the year when I always get sad ( as stupid as that sounds). it's a sadness with no definition and that's what's frustrating. It's like this hazy fog that can't be explained. Sometimes it's so thick and heavy I can't even get a deep breath. And for what? I have nothing to be sad about really. I am blessed. I have a good life. an amazing boyfriend who is very patient and understanding. a supportive family. but still the sadness. it's there. some day I have the energy to push it aside and other days, like today, I just surrender and let it seep in. Some times I think: maybe I'll learn something or maybe it will just feel good to dwell in this for a while. It feels about as good as jumping in a lake in Michigan in mid-December. Cold. Yeah, I'm ready for spring. New beginning. New buds that will bring forth amazing flowers and colorful petals and leaves. new birth. It's almost as if part of myself dies at winter's end and God gives me another chance for happiness again. I know that may sound whimsical or cheesy but that's how it feels.

Can you imagine what my life would have been like if I had moved to Boston? Buie just asked me this the other day and I haven't really stopped to think about it until now. A lot of things would be different. I would have a whole new life and my friends here would a thing of the past. I'm not sure if Buie and I would have dove into the long distance thing either. I tried that once. I'm not good with long distance. And talk about cold. I don't think I'm made for cold weather. I keep hoping everyday that I put on my heavy coat and scarf that today might be the last time I'll wear this until next year...but alas, I woke up today to snowflakes!! Spring better be amazing, that's all I'm saying.

10 down. many to go.

I have decided that I need to be more disciplined. So far I have lost 10 pounds since the horrid realization last year that I have gained about 30 pounds since I graduated college. Everyone always warns you of the "freshman 15" but no one seems to mention the "post-college 30." Well, ladies and gentlemen, it's coming off. Slowly but surely. Here's the problem though. I can't exercise like normal people due to my situation. Fibromyalgia, I'm convinced, is of the devil. It causes me more pain than I ever knew existed. So...the plan to be more disciplined: swimming. No impact exercise that works all muscle groups. And the good news...I have an indoor pool in my new condo.

10 down. many to go.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

It's been a while

So blogging is back in again apparently ... someone told me today. Xanga is out...way out and blogging is so in. (quote unquote) I couldn't help but laugh at that one. Who decides what's in and what's out?

Well, it's Valentine's Day which always reminds me of my significant other, as well it should. Which in this case, I'm celebrating something a little different. This is the year I am certain that I will never spend another Valentine's day with anyone other than Brent Buie. Valentine's Day is also special to me because it was around this time last year that I told Buie those three words that are so hard to say at first. But it's the same three words that I think get overlooked. We say those words so frequently now that I almost dont even think about the meaning behind them. Today we take the time to slow down and think about these three words. I love you.